The (NOT SO) Skinny Girl

DEAR DEPRESSION, I'm tired of letting you steer the boat. I think you ought to jump ship. I want to be the captain of my own life again.... Kindly F**K off. Thanks!

DEAR ANXIETY: Kindly F**K off, thanks!

Although most of us will not make eye contact and shift uncomfortably around and make 101 excuses- and otherwise struggle to avoid the unpleasant reality- when asked about why we don't get up and exercise of SOME SORT we get almost defensive about it. The mindset of "don't judge me, you don't know my life" is quite apparent across the board. But the truth of the matter is--- unless we are injured or sick, being or not being fit is a choice. Oh yes, it really is a CHOICE. Sorry(not sorry) about pointing that one out.  Each and every day has 24 hours. So: sleep 8, work 10, (which most don't) and that still leaves 6 hours. Maybe commute 2? 4 hours left. Somewhere in that 4 hours there is a half hour to do some active physical exercise- studies show that even a half hour of focused exercise is good for the mind and body. I find it hard to exercise in the morning. I'm better at getting it in at night or during my lunch break- half hour walk at lunch is ...

For the last 4 or so years, I have been a passive participant in a very cool event. LITERALLY. Each year I hit the Jersey Shore in February to hang out with my friends... my friends who are supporting a great cause. The Seaside Heights Polar Bear plunge gets 6,000 participants and 25,000 spectators... and boats and helicopters too! What's the cause? NJ Special Olympics. NEED I SAY MORE?? Tomorrow, we plunge! This year I am participating in the SEASIDE HEIGHTS POLAR BEAR PLUNGE TO SUPPORT NJ SPECIAL OLYMPICS. Any donations are appreciated for this great cause. Little did I know that on top of my sign-up fee I have to raise $100 for the cause. Since it is such a worthy cause I am not daunted, but any help is appreciated!! Cheers to athletes who deserve it and the scholarships and friendships and teaching and training and life lessons ... they deserve the $100 more than I do! http://www.classy.org/fundraise?fcid=904967

As I sit behind my desk in my collared shirt and sweater with dress pants and boots on, I realize something... This is almost exactly the outfit I had once worn to the barn! I bought the sweater I'm wearing today from Izod on sale because I needed "professional" barn clothes for a barn manager job I had accepted. I was expected to dress to impress every day-- dress to impress high dollar clientele at the BARN. Yes, this is a real thing. I bought 3 Izod polos of various colors with jewels or preppy stripes/plaid on them... I bought barely used second-hand britches to replace the holey and stained ones I had had since I began my riding career. I had wonderful muck boots for when I was doing the dirty work, and I had a brand new pair of paddock boots with shiny half chaps ready to throw on when the clients arrived. I got myself a puffer vest, a Carhartt for the outdoorsy work in the winter, and a sleek fitted black all-weather jacket to throw on if I needed it when cl...

So tax season is in full swing. My documents are in the queue to be processed and filed with my accountant. Which brings me to my first point of discussion.... using an actual person (accountant) to do your taxes vs. Turbo tax (or other electronic self-filing program). -If you are outraged that wealthy people (including Trump) get 'unfair' tax breaks, what have you done to remedy your own situation? Have you read up on tax law lately? Do you know the ins and outs of the system? Do you know how to make it work for you? Do you know the secrets of the trade? NO?! THEN WHY THE  F**K  ARE YOU USING A SELF GUIDED PROGRAM TO COMPLETE YOUR TAXES? -If you think that having a professional do your taxes is too expensive, and would rather let a cheap or free program assist you, then why are you crying that you don't make out on your taxes? -If you cry year after year about how your 'return' turns out... why aren't you seeking additional guidance/assistance? Why are yo...

What's the golden rule?  Well, they say it many times in the Bible and it has it's derivatives in other religions.... “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you” (Matt. 7:12) 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:31

I have said it before and I will say it again- my husband is an immigrant. His whole family and the majority of his friends are immigrants. This"immigrant" conversation really hits home for me. Here's why... The country my husband comes from tries it's hardest NOT TO LET IT'S PEOPLE OUT. Especially the youth. Government officials know the youth will power the country forward into the new century (duh) and are important to the workforce and the economy. People have to win a lottery for VISA's. People who apply for VISA's can be denied for no reason at all, and not informed of this denial for a long period of time. It's also a country with a very high white population, almost no blacks, and I don't remember seeing any Latinos or Asians while there either...THAT'S A FIRST WORLD EUROPEAN COUNTRY RIGHT THERE.  2/16/17 was an organized nationwide strike called "day without immigrants". One headline read: 'Day Without Immigrants...

There are so many things to compare and fight for in this day and age. Comparing women vs men and fighting for equal rights. Comparing legal citizens vs illegal citizens and fighting for their rights. Comparing gay vs straight, humanitarian outlook vs self-survival outlook, or classic gender assignment vs new age gender assignment.... really the list can go on but I'm already face-palming and shaking my head.... WHY? Because the bottom line is we are all HUMANS (right??) and we all have certain unalienable rights- in my opinion best outlined as life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness... and then to be sub-categorized accordingly. What I would like to focus on, in light of February being BLACK HISTORY MONTH, is the Black vs White conundrum that all people are faced with. Last night I attended an event, and I was the minority. Me. White, suburban ME. I was out to promote a dear friend of mine and have a good time. I was out of place and felt it. There were a hand...

Make up your mind- no really, make it up! That's the first step- making a decision. When you really truly believe in the decision, you can take the next step- DO IT. Like NIKE, just do it!

You don't know oh how important and relevant this thought is to me today. For almost year I have sat pondering my existence, I woke up with a bleak outlook and have wallowed in self pity instead of making moves to make it better. And everyday when I went to bed, I hoped and prayed the next day would be better. I never realized I was missing opportunities TODAY. I couldn't bring myself to the point where I knew that hopes and prayers weren't what I needed- that action is what I needed. Allowing yourself to be consumed by depression, not seeking help, but instead settling into that rushing spiraling void can be DEBILITATING. If you can sense that YOU are having a problem, don't be afraid to reach out. YOU realizing it is the first step. YOU seeking help is the next. YOU getting better is the anticipated outcome. YOU creating YOUR future is the long term goal. :)

Are you interested in traveling to Puerto Rico? Are you also interested in (to say the least) animals? Their companionship, their well being, and their overall health and happiness? Are you aware of the epidemic of animal abuse and neglect in Puerto Rico? Are you aware of the approximately 250,000 stray dogs that line the beaches and streets of once jovial, extremely beautiful Puerto Rico? Are you aware that, if not from starvation, exposure to the elements or being hit by a car and left untreated and suffering, then their demise will ultimately be at the direct hands of humans – in illegal fighting rings or other malicious acts. Recently a bill was presented to the Vice President of the Puerto Rico Senate - Senator Dalmau. This bill was backed by the US Humane Society and The Puerto Rico Association of Hotels and Tourism. Why? Because it's estimated that the island loses around 15 million dollars annually from travelers that will not return or will not recommend because ...

In the words of Eminem: "I am, whatever you say I am.  If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?  In my eyes, Eminem is admitting to being everything everyone ever said he was. That's actually awesome- because he accepts who he is (his faults, his failures, his haters), he doesn't blame other people. He wants to be perceived exactly the way he is, no political correctness, no sugar coating, no ulterior motives. He's being REAL, and he wants to be real , and he wants to be known for being real. However, there are plenty of times that people are perceived in away that is not true to WHO THEY ARE. Personally, for me, I'd like to correct that... to... " I am, whatever you say I am.  If I wasn't, then why would  YOU  say I am?" In my life, I have felt a lot of labels were placed on me. Some maybe I earned, some maybe I outgrew, some maybe I had no knowledge of. I did feet at some points that I received labels that I did not like or agree with, and...

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The mind can be a beautiful, wonderful place... the mind can be a dark and dangerous place... the mind can be humorous and fun, the mind can be numb with pain, the mind can be engrossed in enamor. But above all else- the mind is the place we allow it to be. We have the strength, the ability to reshape it as often as we want. The mind if a powerful tool- and it is in our hands. Have you made up your mind about how you will use it?

OMG Lady gaga rocked the Superbowl Pepsi halftime show last night. #1 Lady Gaga is so REAL #2 Lady Gaga is so true to herself #3 Lady Gaga is no drama #4 Lady Gaga never disappoints #5 Lady Gaga is outrageous #6 Lady Gaga is everybody's celebrity. Everyone can love something she has done, and she loves everyone. She stands for inclusion and equality. #7 Girl can rock shoulder pads and catch a football.... celebrity powderpuff team?? #8- I'm in love with her, can we be best friends please???? #9- 1,000,000,000........... so much love. Oh and who won the game? [who cares] Gaga goes on the record saying:  “The only statements that’ll be making during the halftime show are the ones that I have been consistently making throughout my career,” Gaga said. “I believe in a passion for inclusion. I believe in the spirit of equality and the spirit of this country. It’s one of love and compassion and kindness. So my performance will uphold those philosophies.” From the open...

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