You don't know oh how important and relevant this thought is to me today. For almost year I have sat pondering my existence, I woke up with a bleak outlook and have wallowed in self pity instead of making moves to make it better. And everyday when I went to bed, I hoped and prayed the next day would be better. I never realized I was missing opportunities TODAY. I couldn't bring myself to the point where I knew that hopes and prayers weren't what I needed- that action is what I needed. Allowing yourself to be consumed by depression, not seeking help, but instead settling into that rushing spiraling void can be DEBILITATING. If you can sense that YOU are having a problem, don't be afraid to reach out. YOU realizing it is the first step. YOU seeking help is the next. YOU getting better is the anticipated outcome. YOU creating YOUR future is the long term goal. :)
So my husband and I have been toying with the idea of IVF. That some sort of fertility treatment is probably the next step. And I figure there are three steps to try. If you think/know of others, please share in the comments! 1. Inject his sperm directly into my uterus 2. Take hormones to make sure I am poly ovulating (not sure the scientific term- but it causes more than one egg to ovulate) during a cycle or two 3. Put sperm and egg in petri dish and force glorious union which is then deposited into uterus While I would love to think that being zen and chill and happy with my life as it is could lead to a spontaneous conception during my next cycle, it's hard to be terribly optimistic. And I'm really really fighting optimism this month after my husband read article upon article saying couples had a higher chance of conception after the HSG procedure because it kind of cleans the cobwebs out of the tubes. Gross, but you get the idea. It's like draino for your lady plum...

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