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My 1st Wedding Anniversary

I'd like to say that when I started this weight loss thing almost 30 days ago (I had hoped I would have a full 30 days under my belt by June 3rd when I left for vacation but alas, shipping did not allow for it) it was with the intention to be at my wedding day weight of 120-122 (not quite sure, hotels don't have scales!!) by today.

Reality is, I am nowhere near that. I am lucky if I am at 130 today.
-not enough exercise?
-too much 'cheating'? (terrible word to use while writing about a wedding anniversary....)
-Belly fat is harder to lose than other fats??

But instead of being negative- like so much of the world is ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME- I'm going to look at the positives. 
 *My husband and I have been married 1 full year.
*We have not killed each other. Although I almost burn the apartment building down every time I cook.
*Every day he tells me I'm beautiful just the way I am. He says if I want to lose weight, it is for ME. Not every woman can say that. He loves me whether I'm 130lbs, 112lbs, 135 (like when we first started dating!!)... 120ish, whatever! He supports me making changes in my life to make myself happy. He wants me to be happy.
*We went away to a beach for our anniversary, and I wore a CROP TOP with almost no shame! And a romper for the first time ever! And I felt great!

I know that looking at myself I see rolls. But having a supportive, loving husband who just loves me as I am is a light in the dark. I still want to make myself better. I want to BE better. But I know that I'm loved either way.  <3

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